My friends all think they know me. They always say how funny i am and how happy i always seem to be. I do come across that way 99% of the time. Im in the service industry and i have to. Im a caregiver and i have to. Im all things to all people and i have to. But inside im not always that way. Ive fought depression most of my life. Usually i win. Sometimes it does. Those are the days i stay in my bathrobe and dont go out. The days i want to go to sleep and stay asleep all day because it all goes away when im sleeping. Sometimes its all i can do to haul myself out of bed and go to work. Even the people and things i love the most cant get me past it. And thats too much pressure to put on a person anyway. So i curl up under the covers and hide until responsibility hammers at me too hard to ignore. Then i get up, get dressed, and go be all things to all people again.
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