Ive been alive 46 years. 46. Thats astonishing to me. I feel 30. Only smarter about some things and dumber about others. When i was 30 i had grand ideas of where id be when i turned 40. I was a songwriter then. Id written my first song when i was nine. Id been singing since i could talk. At 30 i had a band and i moved to Nashville. I was single and unencumbered. I lived there 2 years, worked 2 jobs, and sang at writers nites and open mic's on the weekends. It was a struggle and i almost had my car repossessed. But i was happy. Then, back home in ohio, my parents got ill. My mom had cancer. My dad had enphysema. I was the youngest and had the least responsibility so i went home. My father died. My mom moved in with me. I never went back to Nashville. I havent been on a stage in 13 years. Astonishing. Im 46. And im beginning to see i am all im ever going to be.
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